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The Gammage Family Testimony
First of all, I want to express how
excited, honoured, and truly blessed we are to be chosen for
a BA funded vas reversal!!
We are Robert (31) and Melissa (29) Gammage. We have four
children, Brennah (11), Nathan (8), and the twins Kamrynn
and Kassidy (6). We live here in unseasonably hot Central
Texas. We homeschool and are on the board of our local
support group.
A vas reversal is something we have been researching and
praying about for several years. Before we had the twins, we
committed our family size to Christ. After the twins, my
feelings were if God was giving them out in twos, the deal
was off!! We had the twins in Louisville, Ky just 3 months
after we had moved there. We had made no friends that we
felt close enough to
ask for help. The church we attended was going through their
own troubles and had no time to minister to a family they
hardly knew. I can't express what a miserable time this was
in my life.
During this time I really fell away from God and put
down many convictions that I had once held dear. We were
very alone, and I was very depressed. When the twins were 8
months, we moved back to Texas and with that move brought
the opinions of family members. I love my mother dearly, but
she was the worse. She could not visit or call without "When
is Rob going to
the Dr." coming up. With the twins infancy still fresh in my
mind, I set out to break Robert of his convictions. He
believed very strongly that sterilization was and is, sin. I
prodded, promised, bugged, pleaded, and begged my dear
husband to have the vas. After another Bosnia deployment,
I finally broke him. In 1999, he had the vas. He was lying
on the table telling me he didn't want it. I knew deep down
it was wrong, but I chose to ignore God. Robert, not I went
though very deep regret after it was over. He literally
mourns the loss of his sterility. He wanted more children
and in my selfishness, I sinned. I ignored his wants,
desires and convictions.
As we both have worked to regain lost convictions, I
realized that I do want more children. More importantly than
that though, I want Robert to feel good about his manhood
again. If we never get pregnant, Robert still wants to be
made whole again.
Melissa Gammage
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